Month in Review: August

It's been a roller coaster.




I started the month in a more positive outlook. I was feeling inspired and actually wanted to spend more time in blogging. I have been blogging for over 12 years now and I never felt this kind of drive ever before. Even this year when I said that I wanted to blog more, I was still tiptoeing around on the idea of it. But earlier this month, I just wanted it so bad. I made plans on what contents I'll write until the end of the year. I spent about an hour every day trying to drive more audience. I'm also finding ways to monetize it. I'm still very much motivated on my blogging but in other aspects of my life, that's where I'm unsure of.

The last two weeks really have been quite the opposite. I am pretty demotivated. My mind is somehow cluttered with a variety of thoughts. I don't feel particularly inspired to do anything outside of blogging. I'm not sure if that's normal, but I've never felt like this in a very long time. I try not to push the feelings away, but really acknowledging it. I'm asking why am I feeling this way, what particular instances in my life are making unhappy. 

Even up to now, as I write this post, I still feel the same. I am still at loss as to what is triggering all these emotions. Rather than denying myself of these feelings, I'm welcoming it so I can hopefully help understand myself better. Also, I can look for ways to alleviate these if I encounter them again in the future. 

I'm crossing my fingers that things will be much better soon and hoping for more clarity in September. :)

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